Human nature

I like keeping things vague. People judge you yet in reality they don't know anything about you. They don't even know what the hell I'm talking about. The more they judge, the more I laugh. They got it so wrong. Twisted in the way they want you to suffer, fall, or whatever they want. It's not perplexing. It's human nature. And I love observing it. Ain't that amusing? :))

Random love post

Sometimes I get the feeling that maybe love just aint for me. I dont conciously seek for it or anything but witnessing it happen for the people around me and wishing that I'd have something like that someday lessens the hope that I will find it. Haha maybe I'm not making sense. Maybe I still believe that love is possible. A love worth a thousand love stories. Or perhaps. A love that will put those stories to shame. But alas, that love is not for me. At least for now. I will merely be an observer. Love is not something I want or seek at this point. Or is this maybe a start of the end of love for me? Hmm

Musing musings

I know being loved by you would be so awesome. I know you'd always be there for me and would try your best to make me smile. You'd try even harder not to hurt me. But as much as I'd love to have that kind of relationship, I have never imagined myself with you. You are my buddy and you deserve the best in the world. And frankly, that's not me. I jist have this feeling in my gut that would not disappear. Yes, I'm assuming but who cares. Musing musings. That's that. Off to bed.