Enough

Maybe it's just not meant to be. Maybe we were never supposed to be lovers. Maybe we don't really belong in each other's lives. Bam, turtle, my love...for the 2nd time you cheated on me. You said that you'd work hard to gain back my trust. You said that I was the only one. That I was your future wife. Being the fool that I am, I believed you. For the nth time, I believed you. How many times must you hurt me? How many times will you fool me? As much as I love you, even my love is not enough to satisfy you. You are greedy.

I wanted for things to be okay. I honestly believed that it would work out. That eventually you'd be back to the way you were before. An honest and dependable man that I adored. But I think you're too caught up in your lies that you don't even see where you're headed anymore. Your indecisiveness, guile, and quite frankly, your worldly lust and selfishness has gotten the better of you. You say that you love me but managed to spend the night with other women in your bed? Is my love not enough?

This isn't the kind of relationship I want. I'm drowning in my insecurities and yet you won't give me any assurance where we're heading. It tears me up inside and every time this happens all I can think off is, am I not enough?

But dear, I am enough. I am more than enough. For who loves me, I will be enough. I don't have to compete for time. I won't have to ask the simplest request. I won't have to fight for your attention. Coz I deserve someone who'll give me all that without the tiniest bit of hesitation. I deserve a real man in my life. Someone who wouldn't draw up castles in the sky only to break them down with the harshness of reality.

With every bit of my heart, I love you...but even the strongest of love will break under these insurmountable lies. I had done enough. I had cried enough. I gave you more than second chances. And yet, I was not enough...and I guess I never will. Maybe it's really time to bid farewell to this relationship...

And to the girl who befriended me, Karla, I really did like you. I really thought that we could have been good friends. I guess I'm really a bad judge of character. You were no friend at all. You lied to me. I confronted you and still you lied. How dare you sleep with my guy? How dare you feign innocence and make me feel like everything was all in my head? Then again, if you can't even respect yourself, how can I expect you to respect me. It's funny coz you wished our relationship goodluck and told me you were rooting for us. What the hell, Karla. I really shouldn't have trusted you. You are after all one of his exes.

So finally, let's put an end to this dysfunctional relationship. You can keep your bitch. I'm not staying. Rather, I'm moving forward. Far away from assholes like you.