Fearing a Heartbreak

It's so easy to fall in love with you. To succumb to the comfort of having you back in my life. My feelings didn't really change. I'm just scared of telling you all these. I'm not prepared. Still, it's hard when you don't know where you stand. We like each other, that's a fact, but to be in a relationship again is a bit too soon. I'm not even sure if you're serious about me. And I can only bear too much. Another strand and my world will go haywire again. To fall back in to the endless abyss of despair. The pain of a heartbreak.

Another Chapter

I'm not sure if it's good or bad but, hey, we're friends again. I don't want to be stuck in the same place ever again. I think I deserve a better story this time. It's not necessarily a love story but it's another chapter with you and I. I don't know what to feel towards you. I'm concerned about you but to what extent I'm not sure. I love your family and I feel as if I'm part of it too. That's how accepted and loved they made me feel. With everything that's going on, I can't help but feel attached.

I'm not sure...

It's weird when something you've been praying for for the longest time becomes a reality. You don't know how to react. I mean, When you've already accepted the fact that there's no chance of getting back together. When you've finally garnered enough courage to pick up the pieces and move on, it happened. They broke up. I'm not really hoping that they'd break up. Before, maybe I would have been thrilled by this but then again I realized that that's just mean and bad. I never meant for him to be hurt. All I wanted was for him to be happy. Even if his happiness is not to be with me. Right now, I don't know what to do. A part of me wants to be there for him but there's hardly any need. He's strong. He can manage. I just want to be there for him for my own sake. Like bridging the gap of years. But another part of me is saying drop it. You've given too much already, don't add insult to your injuries. I really don't know what to do.

Right now, I'm weighing things. I don't want to seem desperate. I still like him. I really do. He is really precious to me yet at the same time I think I'm already falling for someone else. Wherever this goes, I must not make a mistake. I don't wanna be broken again.