Musing musings

I know being loved by you would be so awesome. I know you'd always be there for me and would try your best to make me smile. You'd try even harder not to hurt me. But as much as I'd love to have that kind of relationship, I have never imagined myself with you. You are my buddy and you deserve the best in the world. And frankly, that's not me. I jist have this feeling in my gut that would not disappear. Yes, I'm assuming but who cares. Musing musings. That's that. Off to bed.