This is Awkward

Hey, baby, I finally know why you're acting this way. It's nice  of you to talk to me and tell me what's going on. Now I know that I'm not just imagining the awkwardness between us. *Sigh* That's why you're like that.

Baby, you like me.

When I'm near you, you can't help but feel nervous and tense. You can't act like you normally do. You are so anxious. You mentioned that maybe I just give off a strong vibe but that's just not it. You kept hinting that you like me or that you have a crush on me but it's all loaded with uncertainty. There's a struggle between you being a friend and having a crush on me that you can't help but feel that you have stepped beyond the line of friendship and it makes you feel guilty.

In our entire conversation, you may not have told me directly but it's clear to me that you are attracted to me. I'm not sure to what depths but that fact remains. I yearn for me to care for you and reach out. You hide this with plenty of jokes on the side and your childish demeanor.

Thank you for liking me. Thank you for seeing something special in me.

For a start, I don't hate you but I don't especially like you either. We're cool. I mean, you really are one of my babies.

I remember when we first met. You were a bit hyperactive but you were serious about your studies and you have a high drive for what you do. I really admire that about you. I see a kid in you. Someone I should help mold. In a sense, my shoti.

I don't really know how to break the awkwardness. I'm scared that if I reach out, I might hurt you. I might make you fall harder for me and that's not really my intention. I'm scared that I might give you false hope. I haven't really seen you as a man before...well, even as boy, really. I was just too focused on being a good "ate". And I don't know how to react to this.