I'm done believing

I'm done believing. I'm getting more and more hurt. Can't you see that? Don't open up an old wound. It makes it harder to heal. I'm so freakin' sick of all of this. I'm just too damned hurt. I mean how could you just break through my barriers as if nothing happened? Try to act sweet and show discontentment over your present girlfriend and damn you to compare her to me. You make me feel so stupid. I'm mortified that I'm affected by this. I'm done believing in something that's not there. I'm done believing that you'll come back. It's so damned stupid. To think that things will work out is just plain stupid. You're not doing anything in the first place. You just tip me off the edge and there's nothing I can do but fall deeper and deeper onto you. I'm a freakin' retard. Hay.