Jealousy

What is this I'm feeling? I've been thinking about the two of you for quite some time now. I couldn't really shake the thought of you and her together. I know that you're friends and everything but somehow, this feeling keeps recurring. Like an endless nightmare. I think I really might be jealous of her.

Why is it that I can never say it out right. I never want to assume because I might just fall flat on my face. I run whenever things get complicated. Well, things are getting too complicated now and what do I intend to do about it? Absolutely nothing. Although I maybe jealous of her right now but I'm hoping eventually this feeling will die down. I really don't want to do anything because I'm down right scared.

I'm scared of my feelings for you.

I don't want a sticky situation and I don't wanna get caught in this dilemma. But I think it's a bit too late to be saying stuff like this 'cause I'm already here. I'm exactly where I was a year ago. It's a bit different but the feeling's the same.

Last year someone loved me so much that it hurt for me to let him go. It was a very pure love. Innocent and pure. Yet this time, I'm not even sure if he's serious about me. I guess that's what scares me the most.

As much as I try to deny it, little by little I'm getting too drawn to him. I'm liking him more than I'd like. I'm trying hard not to fall 'cause I don't wanna lose my balance...