Things Left Unsaid

How do you begin to get over someone you love? Just when you found the courage to fight, he disappears. All that's left is the memories which you hold on to dearly. He vanishes on you, perhaps to heal his heart as well.

I cannot begin to ponder all these things. There are still a lot of words left unsaid. A lot of emotion in me trying to get out and driving me nuts. He drives me crazy. His absence drives me crazy. It's hard enough getting used to him, and yet it's harder without him. It's a lot more painful and lonelier.

Maybe all I need is for you to say that you don't want me anymore. A kind of closure. Let's just put an end to it. Help me forget about you. Help me let you go.

I just need to talk to you. And yet, I'm so afraid to do so. Being with you is a double edged sword. For one thing, it offers the closure I envisioned. And yet, another chance to be with you might tip me more off balanced.

*Sigh*